Another year older...

Very long time; I have just pulled this blog out from under the dust and re-read it.

A lot has happened since I posted, as well. 

China and orphans
I joined a mercy team to visit orphans and displaced children in China. Unbelievable experience and seeing God's hand in everything, amazing beyond words.

The little girl with albinism in China?
I have met her. She is a delight and has changed grown and filled out since I first saw her photos. Comfort and security plus a healthy lifestyle wrought some of this. Love and God did the most.

The little boy with albinism in China?
Has a forever family in the US. I met someone who knows of his new family. I am comforted that he is loved.

Me?
A broken vessel, still. Trying hard to be His daughter and worthy but failing miserably at every turn, still.

I do see God's hand. 
I see how my research into adoption helped with visiting orphanages with a heart open to truly loving the children there.
I see how the same research and digging gave me an awareness of what is happening in adoption so I could have a heart ready for displaced children.
I see how my focus on one child opened doors that would otherwise have remained closed to my mind.
I see how blogging the mind wanderings led me to people I otherwise would never know. People who adopt more than one child, whose hearts are broken for and by the process, but who know that saving one child gives one child a chance.
I see how I gained more knowledge about special needs and differences.
I see how through showing me this, God broke me and remade me.

I see how I learnt mercy, grace, faith and obedience.
I see how I forget that I learnt all these things on a daily basis, as I am impatient, grumpy, inattentive, judgemental and unforgiving.
I see how far I can and do fall, and how He can pick me up again.

I see how through it all He had a plan. 
I also see that it isn't finished yet.