so long status quo

So while not much is happening documentation and government wise, and nothing can til we see the powers that be (PTB) in May, I'm going to indulge in my thoughts and conversations.

I have had this song in my head for a while, and while it may not resonate with some, for me, in this path, it is just where I am right now. The song is by Nichole Nordeman, one of my favourite Christian musicians.

Brave (Nichole Nordeman, Jay Joyce)

The gate is wide, the road is paved in moderation
The crowd is kind and quick to pull you in
Welcome to the middle ground, you're safe and sound and
Until now, it's where I've been
'Cause it's been fear that ties me down to everything
But it's been love, your love, that cuts the strings

So long status quo, I think I just let go
You make me want to be brave
The way it always was is no longer good enough
You make me want to be brave
Brave, brave

I am small and I speak when I'm spoken to
But I am willing to risk it all
I say your name, just your name and I'm ready to jump
Even ready to fall
Why did I take this vow of compromise?
Why did I try to keep it all inside?

I've never known a fire that didn't begin with a flame
Every storm will start with just a drop of rain
But if you believe in me, that changes everything

2005 Birdwing Music / Birdboy Songs (ASCAP), admin. by EMI CMG Publishing / Sony/ATV Songs LLC / JohnnyO Music (BMI)
© 2005 Sparrow

The funny thing is that this is how I'm feeling -I think I just let go of the status quo
 and the way it's always been isn't good enough now. And reading other people's stories merely confirms this in my mind. It seems like it's the way it's always been meant to be, yet 12 months ago I'd have laughed if you'd told me...

I will likely be annoying the Dept Families and communities lady again soon, so maybe we should pray that she has patience with me wanting to cast aside protocol and procedures.. and bring home a little man.I'm more than happy to comply with all the regulations and paperwork, I'd just like a little person to know he is wanted. I emphasise that HE is wanted, just him, by a family.