I dont want to be happy and comfortable

Okay so I'm linking to someone else's blog again. This doesn't mean I have nothing to write; far from it. My heart is full to bursting of stuff I should be writing but I'm just being....calm.  :)

I read an email linking to this blogpost not long ago and knew I wanted to share it. Entitled "I don't want my kids to be happy" it nudges into my thoughts for my children as well. Neither do I want to be happy or comfortable.
http://itsalmostnaptime.blogspot.com/2010/02/i-dont-want-my-children-to-be-happy.html


I read another blog this morning where some women visiting Ethiopian orphanges prayed that their hearts would be broken for what breaks God's heart. Oh wow can you imagine how strong you would have to be? My heart breaks for them just by my thinking about it!!! And seeing the sorrow that is everywhere in Ethiopia... can you even begin to imagine? I could only do it with God's strength and the knowledge that His hand is holding me.


I'm not a better stronger holier or wiser person than others because I feel so strongly about this path, in fact it is humbling to see how small and ignorant I truly am in comparison to a God who can work more than our human hearts can imagine or conceive. He gives me beauty for ashes.... for the worthless garbage I present to Him, proudly proclaiming "here's the sum of my life" he gives me beauty and glory. Without scorning or mocking, he takes my giving and nods me towards Him.
What I see as good works and mighty deeds here on earth aren't even going to come within a whisper of the wonders He has to show me. The most beautiful place on earth? If I could find it? It would be a glorious site and sight. A Keith Green song (I can't wait to get to Heaven) says "I can't wait to get to Heaven, when you'll wipe away all my fears. In six days you created everything, but you've been working on Heaven two thousand years" How much more beautiful then, is the place He has gone ahead to prepare for us? And how worthy are we of it? Why are we worthy of it? ARE we worthy of it? We are more than worthy because His son overcame sin for us to get us there. If both the father and the Son can endure that for us, why can't we endure a little bit of discomfort in return?
 


Wow. Went off topic there. Thank you God I must have needed to! I hope your journey has less bumps than mine already has - and I'm pre step one! - and we can keep checking back on each other. Who knows, in my blog-stalker mode right now I've probably read / scanned / RSS'd yours!